Survival of Birthdays
06.14.04 | 6:34 p.m.
Mood: Boiling
Music: -none-
Let's see... I don't know why I bought Justine that bag...
I never get to write whatever I want to write anymore whenever I want since Diaryland's always down now.
MSN is so screwed, seriously. It wasn't working last night and it still isn't. Oh well. Got nothing to do on it anyway, meh.
I feel hungry right now, but I'm too lazy to go downstairs to get food. Mom's gonna be home soon anyway and will have dinner with her.
I'll eat then.
We got our composite photos back today too. I look sooo weird in it, like a true doll. I guess I really DO live up to "whenDee-dolliee".
Most people took their glasses off for the pictures; I didn't and neither did Kim. That's probably why I looked ugly!!!I barely recognized Mary without her glasses on.
Melissa, Angela, Cheli and Steph's turned out pretty good, and so did Mai's.
Some of the guys just looked...off.
Honestly, in my view, I really don't see a point of getting someone a birthday present with their only response to it as, "This was the least of what I wanted." behind your back.i know that that bag was very ugly and cheap but she shouldn't have said all those things behind my back.
Well, EXCUSE ME if you didn't ask for anything else. After all, you only wanted me to get that for you just to "show that I actually got something for you".
If I were like that, I would've made the entire school get me something by now. But nooo..most people actually FORGOT my birthday since it's at the end of the summer and they never ended up getting me anything either.
I don't bug them to death about it just so that they would finally get me something that I never really wanted in the first place.
The whole point of celebrating one's birthday isn't to show off how many presents one gets, or how many people actually remembered; it's to celebrate the fact that one has again made it through another year of living and having hopes that the next year would be even better.
The original point of having people give out presents on birthdays is to reward the person for making it through another year and giving them wishes for a better year.
So many people have already mistakened this fact and many more will follow.
Thank you for at least saying a thank you to me after you got your present, but it was highly unnecessary of you to make those comments afterwards, no matter how much you mean it.
I know if you ever get your hands on this entry, you'll be mad at me all over again, but see, I don't really care this time.I've became such a bitch that I don't care about what people think of me anymore.
I've made my point, and whether you accept it or not, it's your choice, which I don't give a damn about.
So go ahead, forget my birthday or even start swearing at me whether to me, or behind me. It wouldn't matter anymore because what you think isn't of any concern to me.
And anything you can give me is not worth the taking, if you only got it because you felt like you had to.
Next time, if you really didn't want anything from the person who would never be able to get you what you wanted, don't ask for something you never wanted.
You'll just be wasting their damned money. The money that they could've spent on someone who would've actually appreciated it.
See, there's a reason why Mary always tells people to not give her gifts on special occasions. It's so that she won't have to feel that she just HAS to owe the person back with a present of her own.
No one ever wants to be in that position feeling that they just have to give something to someone, just so that someone will stop bugging you about it and/or so that you don't feel guilty.
I don't like that position, and I doubt you do too. So try not to enforce it on others, if you actually care about them.
I think I've said enough to make you boiling mad at me now, so I'll just shut up here instead of at the very top of this entry when I should've.
I speak my mind, but then again, so do you. And no one's hurt you for that yet.
So I think I'll survive and maybe I'll snap by next year and pretend that I like all those "popular" girls... amd suck up to them so they would like me.
~ whenDee