Out With the Blade
06.19.04 | 2:57 p.m.
Mood: Confused
Music: Naughty Girl - Beyonce
I took out the blade again this morning. Scars and trails of blood leave me no wonder. If only mental pain could be washed away as easily as the blood dotting my skin.
I swore to myself I'd never do it again a couple years ago, but I've been lying to myself for my entire life, what makes this any different?
It's ironic really. Cutting never seem to give as much satisfaction as it did then. Or maybe I'm just growing from it.
I stopped eventually of course. It's almost stupid. Instead of having just sat there with a blade in hand, I could've been shopping at Spadina.
We cancelled that of course. Justine has to catch up with her art classes and Lily for some reason couldn't go anymore.
Throughout this entire time, I'm STILL looking for a blue and black pen. I mean, I could just go out and get some, but knowing me, I always either forget or can't find the PERFECT pen.
By the way, I looooove the BUZZ!!! feature on Yahoo! =D
The only problem is that we can't spam on Yahoo!..they won't allow you to make over six of the same smiley in order. ='(
How sad...I'm beginning to miss MSN.
~ whenDee