To J/A
07.10.04 | 3:16 p.m.
Mood: Disgusted
Music: My Way Home - Jessica Simpson
__my life - 1o.o6.o4;
It`s funnyy.. how tears can pour out of one`s eye, for no reason at all.. sighh* life has been so complicated for mee these dayss. Thought real friends would understand. but it was all a lie i guess..actions mean more then words. and sometimess..a word `sorry is worth nothingg, and can fix nothing as well, until its shown to you. its hard to decide, when half of the world says you should forgive, yet the other says you should`nt. someone give me an answer..
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July/9/04 [4:23am]
i though friends lasted forever... knowing me i knew i couldn`t keep my friends... and i haven`t... if i`m used to it... why does this one hurt more? was everything really my fault? i`ve done all i could to try and get the friendship bac... i guess a true friend would forgive and forget and would really be there for me... when will i ever actually make a friend i`d be able to keep?
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I really thought you guys were better than this.
Forgiveness will be given to you only if you show you're truly sorry for what you've done.
No, it's not completely your fault because you can't blame yourself for being only human. You were only human when you thought of those thoughts and when you questioned her about it.
But even humans can be wrong.
The word "sorry" is a mere word. If that word didn't exist in this world, how can you show that you're sorry instead?
And when you're forgiving, please, don't be such a harsh judge. Maybe you haven't done what she has done, but if it were the other way around, I think she would've forgiven you easily.
Maybe she hasn't found a way to say sorry yet other than verbally, but that doesn't mean she isn't really sorry.
Friends aren't forever, but neither is loneliness.
4:35 - Afterthought
On another note if this is how hard you had tried to keep all the friends you had before, then no offense but...that isn't very hard then.
A true friend would forgive and forget, but a true friend would also try their utmost hardest to show that they're sorry.
Just because she says that she doesn't wanna hear or see your sorries doesn't mean you still can't show her.
Because no matter what, Justine isn't the type of person to completely ignore and hate someone. She'll still take notice of you no matter what you've done and she WILL always be there for you when you need it.
Just some thoughts... Any comments or corrections? IM me, you know where.
~ whenDee